to retrain your mind and direction. In an earlier blog, I wrote about triggers that used to cause me to eat. With the situation I'm working through right now, I found out its still in full swing. Today, I actually found myself craving something bad for the wrong reasons. It was innocuous, a piece of pie. In the grand scheme of things, the sacrifice wouldn't have been that great. It's really okay to indulge every once in a while. But, I would have done it for the wrong reasons. I do my best to try to keep my indulgences small like a mini version of a candy bar or maybe a small serving of ice cream. I love apple pie. Seriously, just love the flavor, the texture, the way it illuminates my senses, and the way it seems to settle my nerves is amazing. Again, I occasionally eat desert, it's not a big deal. But today, I would've wanted to eat to fill a need. In this case, the need was that I'm still dealing with a couple of family issues that are painful. I would've eaten to dull the pain and that is never good. That is how I had to be put on the journey in the first place. Given a different day and circumstance it might have been different. Today, I wanted to buy and eat the whole pie but didn't. Maybe some other day, I will eat that small piece. But for today, it wasn't right. This is what its like to retrain your mind. For the record, I had V8 and a bottle of water instead.
October 30 is just a few weeks away.
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