Another interesting turn on the journey is clothes. Clothes, at times, are as much as how they make you feel as how they fit on you. When you start where I was, there was the perception in your mind and the reality in the mirror. Used to, I would reflect in my mind and thought I looked okay but in all reality I wasn't. I wore bigger clothes than would fit in the hopes of covering my size but it didn't. It somehow managed to make me look bigger. As a result, I felt bad. As I began to lose weight, I would pass through the sizes and begin to see more and more the reality of my situation. I am not now where I aim to go. But, now when I put on clothes the perception in my mind and the reality in the mirror are slowly beginning to reconcile. Now when I look in the mirror, I see the reality of someone who can overcome because he turned not just his mind over but his body as well for God's use.
I'll admit. I got to see myself in the mirror today and it almost moved me to tears. Everyday that I walk, work out, eat right, and maintain a positive attitude, I become more of what I'm supposed to be - fit not thin. It is my firmest conviction that my self esteem comes not from me but from the God who made me.
October 30 will soon be here.
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