Backsliding

Okay, so it has been a while again. I hope to keep better track of this thing this time. After many great strides, I have fallen back. Though I haven't gained all the weight back, I was making steady gains. What to blame or more precisely, who to blame - me. I stopped working out because I had hurt myself a couple of times. I tried to keep my eating on par but I would come and go with that. Time robbed me of the opportunity and will robbed of the reason to go work out anymore. Suddenly, I cancelled my 24 hour fitness membership. I was on the verge of giving it all up. I noticed my clothes fitting tighter, the pain in my back coming back, and the eternally tired feeling coming back. My self-esteem began to dip and self-loathing started to come back. I felt unworthy to be married to my beautiful wife.

Today, all that changed. I joined a fitness club. Once again, I will have to fight and claw my way back out, though not as far as I had. I am upset with myself that I didn't keep the self-discipline that I had. Now, I will have to dig down deep and do it.

The blog has been reactivated. I will not surrender. I will keep up the fight.